2 Corinthians 12:9

But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness."
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

Monday, May 20, 2013

Shiloah- the fountain of life

Hey brothers and sisters!

I was sharing the following with Brandon this morning and he encouraged me to share it with you all.  Sometimes my thoughts don't really tie together well, so I'm not sure if this makes any sense, but feel free to comment and share more insight!  

To lay out the scene for you- I was reading in Isaiah this morning, really enjoying the prophesy of the coming Immanuel (Isaiah 7), and thinking how neat that, long before Jesus Christ ever came to earth as a baby, His name was already written in the word. In the back of my mind, I was thinking, "Boy, it would be nice if God would show me what to name our next child," and then I went on reading.  

I came to Isaiah 8:6, where it talks of the waters of Shiloah. I wondered exactly what those waters that the Israelites rejected was, what it symbolized, so I began studying it. Below are my observations, which have really encouraged me today.  


Shiloah- means gentle, quiet. Root word means rest.  Jesus is called Shiloh (rest-giver) in Genesis 49:10 (some verses just say "He", while others read, "Shiloh"). "The sceptre shall not depart from Judah, nor a lawgiver from between his feet, until Shiloh come; and unto him shall the gathering of the people be."  In Isaiah 8:6, we find that the Israelites "rejected the gentle flowing waters of Shiloah".  This is referred to as "a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the most High dwells" (Psalm 46:4). It was a gentle flowing river because it flowed from a spring, which is why we often read of Christ being the living water.  It was not a stagnant pond.  It had a gentle, constant flow.

Shiloh is an ancient village of central Palestine, Northwest of the Dead Sea.  It was a meeting place and sanctuary for the Israelites and the site of the tabernacle where the Ark of the Covenant was kept (more on that in a bit).  There was a baptismal pool, Siloam, which means sent, (John 9:7) where Jesus told a man blind from birth to wash, located just outside the walls of the Old City to the southeast, which was fed by waters of the Gihon Spring (which seems to be synonymous with the spring of Shiloah).

We find Isaiah 8:6 echoed in Jeremiah 2:13, "My people have committed two sins: They have forsaken me, the spring of living water, and have dug their own cisterns, broken cisterns that cannot hold water."  Again, in Jeremiah 17:13, we read, "LORD, you are the hope of Israel; all who forsake you will be put to shame. Those who turn away from you will be written in the dust because they have forsaken the LORD, the spring of living water."    This just stands as such a reminder to me that any time I turn to my own works, I am forsaking, denying, and rejecting the living water. I am rejecting Christ.  This living water is from Christ andis Christ. It comes from the very Throne of God. (Revelation 22:1 Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb.)  In other words, He is the Source

Ezekiel 47 is a beautiful picture of what happens when we rely on the living water.  (Below, verses 7-9)

Now when I had returned, behold, at the bank of the river were very many trees on the one side and on the other. Then said he to me, These waters issue out toward the east country, and go down into the desert, and go into the sea: which being brought forth into the sea, the waters shall be healed. And it shall come to pass, that every thing that lives, which moves, wherever the rivers shall come, shall live: and there shall be a very great multitude of fish, because these waters shall come thither: for they shall be healed; and every thing shall live where the river comes.

Above we see a physical picture of what Jesus said would happen within in John 7:38: "He who believes in Me, as the Scripture said, 'From his innermost being will flow rivers of living water.'"

Isaiah 44:3 "For I will pour water on the thirsty land, and streams on the dry ground; I will pour out my Spirit on your offspring, and my blessing on your descendants."

These verses in Ezekiel also remind me of what Jesus said when he called His disciples: "Come, and I will make you fishers of men!"
Something the Lord has been showing me these last few weeks is that He fills us and changes us not for just our own benefit, but for the benefit of the whole body of Christ. The river of life within the "inner man" is not just for his or her benefit, but it is meant to overflow.  Everything it touches it brings life to.  It heals. Those things don'tt just survive but really FLOURISH with life. In the Bible, we see that everywhere around this living water is lush, green life.  So we can see that the Holy Spirit, this living water, is who should flow out from us and build up the whole body (causing it to flourish), not only touching those who also already have the Holy Spirit, but bringing more into the fold as well.  It is HIS living water that does it. Not us. It is His living water that refreshes and revives, heals and helps, cleanses and satisfies. Nothing else will do. Our own cisterns are empty and can offer nothing but dry dirt.  Digging a cistern is a lot of work. It keeps me busy, but it yields nothing.


Best of all, it is a free gift.

Revelation 22:17- The Spirit and the bride say, "Come!" And let the one who hears say, "Come!" Let the one who is thirsty come; and let the one who wishes take the free gift of the water of life.

Isaiah 55:1 "Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! Come, buy wine and milk without money and without cost."  This speaks of those who have nothing to offer being able to come to the stream and receive.  It reminds me that, if I think I have something to offer, if I think I can afford it myself, I will never joyfully bow before the stream to "draw water from the wells of salvation" (Isaiah 12:3).  All it requires is for me to "come", acknowledging my need.

John 4:10 Jesus answered her, "If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water."
John 4:14 "... but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life."


This bit below speaks of the restoration of Israel, but I believe it speaks to us as well:

Isaiah 49: 8- 10 Thus said the LORD, In an acceptable time have I heard you, and in a day of salvation have I helped you: and I will preserve you, and give you for a covenant of the people, to establish the earth, to cause to inherit the desolate heritages; That you may say to the prisoners,"Come out,"; to them that are in darkness, "Be free!". They shall feed in the ways, and their pastures shall be in all high places. They shall not hunger nor thirst; neither shall the heat nor sun smite them: for he that has mercy on them shall lead them, even by the springs of water shall he guide them.

And I these verses, for me, really expand upon that- Psalm 36:7-9- How excellent is your loving kindness, O God! therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of your wings. They shall be abundantly satisfied with the fatness of your house; and you shall make them drink of the river of your pleasuresFor with you is the fountain of life: in your light shall we see light.

Sounds like a wonderful place to abide- and we can! :-)



John 4:10, 14 Jesus answered her, "If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water... whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life."

Welling up to eternal life. Ahhhh. How sweet is that?

This bit below speaks of the restoration of Israel, but I believe it speaks to us as well:

Isaiah 49: 8- 10 Thus said the LORD, In an acceptable time have I heard you, and in a day of salvation have I helped you: and I will preserve you, and give you for a covenant of the people, to establish the earth, to cause to inherit the desolate heritages; That you may say to the prisoners,"Come out,"; to them that are in darkness, "Be free!". They shall feed in the ways, and their pastures shall be in all high places. They shall not hunger nor thirst; neither shall the heat nor sun smite them: for he that has mercy on them shall lead them, even by the springs of water shall he guide them.

And I these verses, for me, really expand upon that- Psalm 36:7-9- How excellent is your loving kindness, O God! therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of your wings. They shall be abundantly satisfied with the fatness of your house; and you shall make them drink of the river of your pleasuresFor with you is the fountain of life: in your light shall we see light.

Sounds like a wonderful place to abide- and we can! :-)

Anyway, in case you haven't figured it out, Shiloah/Shiloh will be a nice name for our next baby (due Jan. 2014).


Saturday, June 16, 2012

He hears me.

The Lord is near to those who call on Him, to those who call on Him in truth.
Psalm 145:18


It's hard to believe it's been thirteen weeks since this little miracle began her official journey into this world. On one hand, it seems like she's been here forever; on the other, it seems like it was only yesterday.

She was Yahweh's personal message to me, "I love you. I hear you. I am answering you."

You would think I would have clearly understood that already with all the miracles God has performed in our family, but no.  She is (literally) living proof that He pursues me, loves me passionately, and wants me to really know and trust Him.

You see, I often feel like no one really hears me.  I feel like, a lot of times, I am unable to really pour out my heart, share my deepest struggles, because people shrug it off.  (For the record, my husband does not do this. He is pretty much the only person I feel I can be completely honest with because he really listens to what I'm sharing, takes on the task of praying over me, and encouraging me in the Lord.)

I feel like many people think I have it "all together" so they poo-poo my struggles, wave them off like a bothersome fly. This is frustrating as I most certainly do not have it all together, and, on the inside, I'm very messy and icky and want to talk these things out with godly people.

Because of what I feel/perceive/experience in this area of my life, I often project that on Jesus. I refrain from pouring out my life at His feet because I am afraid of rejection. I'm afraid of being shut down. I'm afraid He'll tell me, "You have a good life. You shouldn't feel that way."

Because, honestly, the responses I get from other people when I try to share a sliver of what's going on in my heart pretty much amounts to (at least to my ears), "Get over it."

And while, intellectually, I know that the Lord would never, ever say that to me......  my heart somehow believes otherwise.

I often have to remind myself that the Lord truly loves. He is Love.  So much of what we call love here on earth is not really love.  It's selfishness in sheep's clothing.

Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?  Matthew 6:26
My Heavenly Father loves me. He hears me. He knows the aches and pains and sorrows of my heart. He knows the deepest longings of my soul. I don't have to hold back.  I can share these with Him. I can cry out to Him. I can sob at His feet.  I can be messy and icky and weepy before Him.

He already knows, yet He still longs for me to come and confess it before Him. He never grows tired of my voice. No where in Scripture does He ever say to His people, "Stop calling out to me!"  Quite the opposite! I repeatedly see Him reminding His beloved to cry out to Him.

The Lord doesn't want me to sit in my bedroom and pout, but to cry out to Him with a sincere heart, laying it all down before Him.  (They do not cry to me from the heart, but they wail upon their beds; for grain and wine they gash themselves; they rebel against me. [Hosea 7:14])

I am so thankful that, even when I feel like no one hears me, the Lord does. He truly cares, and He truly listens.  He is involved in the details of my life, numbers the hairs of my head, and knows the desires of my heart.

I pray that He will solidify this understanding within my deepest parts.



Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Nothing Satisfies But You


Ins and outs
Up and down
That's the way the living goes

Laugh and cry
Smile and frown
Emotions running to and fro

And here, "solid ground" seems like sinking sand
And here, the more I know the less I understand.
The tighter I hold, the less I have control,
So I let go....

And I sink into Jesus-
I fall against His breast-
I find my peace in Jesus;
And further in I press.
Oh when I look around, it's obvious to me.
O Jesus- You're all I need.

There's a world calling out for my attention,
Lies on parade as the truth.
So much out to tempt my soul, but
Nothing satisfies but You.


© 2012 MandyMom.com, The Pouring Out

Monday, May 28, 2012

10 weeks


10 weeks have flown by.
How does a baby grow so fast?
How does life flutter by so swiftly?
With all the pouring out, I wonder how much of it I stop to take in.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Our "little" Family

Just in case you missed the adorable pictures I posted (which were snapped by my awesome friend Teri the day after Jubilee's birth), here's a peek- our first family-of-seven photo!









Hard to believe this was almost seven weeks ago! On one hand, it seems like it was only yesterday. On the other, it feels like she's been part of our family forever!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Face to Face


My eyes are closed as I listen to the music. My lips are still, but my heart sings full-force. The Presence in my bedroom is so strong, I literally reach out my hands expecting my fingers to meet with His skin. It's as if he's sitting on the bed across from me, my bible laid out between us.

Come thou Fount of every blessing, tune my heart to sing Thy grace....

My lids flicker open, stunned to find there's no one there, at least- not a physical human body. Shut again, I see Him there legs crossed, watching me, smiling at me.  I can feel Him all around me.

I hold my hands high and sing,

Love came down and rescued me. Love came down and set me free. I am Yours. I am forever Yours.

I feel His hands in mine, and I grasp them tight. So tangible. So real. Faith in the Unseen, and the Unseen is in my bedroom, fingers intertwined with mine.

This is what He's been whispering to me for weeks now.  
    Remember that moment in your room? Your infant's heart and breath on pause? Remember how I was there, physically there? Remember your complete trust in Me at that very moment? Do you recall how I filled you up as your faith wrapped around me, unwavering?  I protected you. I answered you. I was there. I am always with you, but you are not always with Me.  I want you to always be with Me, daughter.  This is how it was meant to be. United.

And the cry of my heart, my deepest desire, has been to experience that moment over and over again just to feel His overwhelming peace and comfort.  I was made for Him. I was made for this. I was made to be in constant connection with Him, fully immersed in Him.

I never want to leave this place.

Exodus 33:11- The Lord spoke with Moses face to face, just as a man speaks with his friend.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

In the midst of my troubles, You are there

I wrote this song today, which I will likely sing tonight at the celebration, but I have no idea what I should title it. Any ideas?