10 weeks

10 weeks have flown by.

How does a baby grow so fast?
How does life flutter by so swiftly?

With all the pouring out, I wonder how much of it I stop to take in.

Our "little" Family

Just in case you missed the adorable pictures I posted (which were snapped by my awesome friend Teri the day after Jubilee's birth), here's a peek- our first family-of-seven photo!

Hard to believe this was almost seven weeks ago! On one hand, it seems like it was only yesterday. On the other, it feels like she's been part of our family forever!

Face to Face

My eyes are closed as I listen to the music. My lips are still, but my heart sings full-force. The Presence in my bedroom is so strong, I literally reach out my hands expecting my fingers to meet with His skin. It's as if he's sitting on the bed across from me, my bible laid out between us.

Come thou Fount of every blessing, tune my heart to sing Thy grace....

My lids flicker open, stunned to find there's no one there, at least- not a physical human body. Shut again, I see Him there legs crossed, watching me, smiling at me.  I can feel Him all around me.

I hold my hands high and sing,

Love came down and rescued me. Love came down and set me free. I am Yours. I am forever Yours.

I feel His hands in mine, and I grasp them tight. So tangible. So real. Faith in the Unseen, and the Unseen is in my bedroom, fingers intertwined with mine.

This is what He's been whispering to me for weeks now.  

    Remember that moment in your room? Your infant's heart and breath on pause? Remember how I was there, physically there? Remember your complete trust in Me at that very moment? Do you recall how I filled you up as your faith wrapped around me, unwavering?  I protected you. I answered you. I was there. I am always with you, but you are not always with Me.  I want you to always be with Me, daughter.  This is how it was meant to be. United.

And the cry of my heart, my deepest desire, has been to experience that moment over and over again just to feel His overwhelming peace and comfort.  I was made for Him. I was made for this. I was made to be in constant connection with Him, fully immersed in Him.

I never want to leave this place.

Exodus 33:11- The Lord spoke with Moses face to face, just as a man speaks with his friend.